lamentations

i wish i could love, without thinking.

i wish i could give as much love as i have inside, without worrying about getting same amount of love back.

i wish he could just love me fully and without worry or anxiety

despite my anxieties and volatility.

i knew i always had a borderline side

but it's damn clear now that i am in this

i keep splitting

loving then loathing the love

i am fickle like the weather 

sunny and 30 degrees one day,

raining and 17 the next.